Freaking Out a Bit

Hello

  I want to share to you who’s reading this stupid blog, I’m really freaking out. Reason: my favourite korean band – and other bands I like too – is coming to Brazil this year. I don’t really know when it is exactly  but I’m sure I’m going to see them. Even if I had to protitute. Do you know when you love something so much that you’d to everything for it? So, that’s how I’m feeling. And to be honest... I’m not even used to feel things like these. I    ‘m always that “not-feeling-anything    “ guy and then SME comes with a new like that. I actually want a coffee. This insomnia is killing me, I tried to sleep but I couldn’t. So, well, now I’m writing.  Shit... now I’m feeling distressed LOL. Isn’t it funny how things change when  the subject is me? I was feeling nice and freaking out but now I’m totally different. I’m actually giving up on writing texts (mostly if these are english texts I don’t even know if I’m gonna post). Ok I’m in a bad mood now. I want to watch Harry Potter but I’m so lazy. I got an idea: I’ll try to sleep and shut the fuck up. Have bad dreams ^_^.
(Three minutes later)
  I’m back! I finished listening to music and now I’m chatting with a friend via text messages over our cellphones. (Ok I could’ve used the world SMS and I wouldn’t write that much but fuck it I write how much I want) I’mk sorry, this is me fighting myself. It’s not too late now, it’s just 02:12 AM. Today was a standard day... I spent all my time using the computer and eating, eating, eating. What a filthy thing! I should stop doing it. OHH I remembered  I have a lotta noodles in the kitchen, maybe I’ll cook some! Ok I’m just kidding. Are you fucking kidding me that you’re still reading this? Come on. I know, I maybe asked you to read it and you’re doing it... Is there anyone who reads my blog and I don’t know? (I won’t ask you to comment this post cause I don’t want the shame of seeing “no comments”).  The rain is making a great noise on my window and I like it. What a pity I’m not able to feel its smell! I really love it. My nose isn’t working right lately. Changing the point of the conversation to myself: Why when I ask God a good dream I don’t dream it? It’s kinda frustrating. I’m really procrastinating now kkk shit. Ok, I’m leaving.


(I still want coffee but I’m too lazy to go take it, don’t you wanna do it for me?)